what's been going on?


The one thing people always tell me why they like my blog is because I'm real. I talk about shit I'm going through or have been through. So it wouldn't be right if I didn't tell you guys what's been going on with me lately. 

I'm been in a funk, to say the least for a little more than a month. By funk I mean, I've lost my vibe, my groove, my mojo. The thing that makes me, feel me.

I feel I've become this negative person who's aura has completely changed. Yes, I used the word "aura". You better bring those tarot cards out or else...

Working out has become a black hole. This thing called "vegan" that I use to associate with... hell, I don't even know what that means anymore. My relationship with David has been pretty rocky lately. I'm overanalyzing things that are like 5 months away. (I know Meghan... I know Meghan, this is pointless) And when's the last time you've seen me post? Exactly! I've been sleeping. I've been watching Netflix. I've been ordering takeout. This is what people call vegging out. Not a lifestyle. But it's a cycle I've fallen into before where I completely have lost my momentum in life and it's not always the easiest. 

*Note - can we please talk about at a later date how all of this can effect your face? The Swiss Alps have decided to set up a it's second range on my face. 

So what am I doing to get my vibe back? Yes, it's only been over a month but I've been here before. Why wait until something gets bad to fix it? Fix it now while the problem is small.

Being honest, I'm going back to therapy. But Meghan, speaking of therapy is so taboo. You're missing out then. That's all I have to say. I went 4 years ago for some months and it was the best decision. It helped me get out of my depression. It helped me develop a healthy relationship with food and my body. I mean therapy is pretty much the shit. 

Now... I'm trying to take things one day at a time. I'm trying to only worry about the things I can control. Those of you with anxiety know how hard this is to do. I mean, that's a struggle within itself let alone everything else we try to do. I'm trying to do things again that make me happy but not overwhelm myself so much that I throw my hands up all together.

But now you guys know what I've been up to. I know we can get in a funk every now and then. Sometimes it takes others longer to get out of it aka ME. So it's ok.

'm sitting on my deck drinking a glass of wine and I'm feeling pretty positive right now. xoxo